I can't think of a subject line...

I can't even really think of anything. I don't know what to think. I hadn't heard from Takeshi in awhile, I was a little concerned but we've gone a little while between emails before. I actually hadn't heard from him since before Christmas, but I got a Christmas card from him we the usual love stuff or whatever, so I thought everything was fine, he was probably just busy with work. But I got this email today... I think I'll put the rest of this under a cut. Its going to be long and I doubt all of you care enough to have your friends lists clogged with this stuff.

( Under the cut )

Sigh...

I haven't decided what I'm going to do yet. If he's going to be miserable, or continue to be miserable as it seems, I don't know if its worth it or not. Its really hard to just give up after 3 years, but if this is really what he wants, I think I should respect that. I still don't know for sure though. I'm not sure I could change his mind.

If its definite it is over, I think I'm going to do the dorky Japanese cut your hair when you get your heart broken thing. Not really short, but still shorter. It'll grow back eventually and might make me feel better.

My head is still throbbing.